Note to Self

           ‘Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you’re not good at something, not even me’.


So, let’s start the post with this quote, and hopefully, by the end of the article, you will understand why.

Most days seem like a battle to you and that is alright. Hey, yes you, I’ve got your back. Yes, I’ve got your back even if you can’t do simple chores today. I’ve got your back even if you can’t muster the courage to groom yourself or be presentable today. Yes, I love you more than ever even if you make so many mistakes and fail that test which can apparently put your crumbling life in order. 

Take a deep breath and sit with your thoughts for a while. You’ve been through a lot and let’s acknowledge that rather than pushing the stuff of toxic positivity down your throat. Learn to say ‘No’ every once in a while. You’ve turned into an opinionated person, not only do I like that but also wholeheartedly respect that. 



The world will constantly try to change you. You may come across people who detest you and sometimes it may take a toll on you so just take a deep breath and let go. I know, it isn’t so easy to do that right now. You’ve suffered the loss of a loved one, you’ve suffered a heartbreak, you’ve suffered in sickness and in health. Congrats a year into adulting, you realise that it sucks and you wish you could go back and change so many things in the past.

But then again, why would you do that? Why would you go and change something that turned you into this beautiful human being? I know that you can’t see it right now and at times you’re not really too proud of the way you have reacted. Congrats, it’s about time you learned that nobody is perfect and that we are all bound to be bad people in someone else’s story.

So, you lived in a home that never really let you speak up, did they! They thought it would drain your voice, but it only gave you stronger opinions. It helped you see the world through a different lens and it may have taken some time but you realised that you don’t have to agree with everything someone said just because you love them.



You realise that being a rebel can be viewed in so many different forms and shapes but more importantly, you realised that you have the power to survive it all. You realised that your grades very rarely defined your ability to get a good job. Your grades should never reflect your self-esteem, but more importantly, what others say shouldn’t make you feel worse about yourself.

It’s been tough but this too shall pass and when the cloud of fog lifts over everything, that heartbreak, that loss of a loved one, that dreaded sickness, it will all make sense and at that point, you wouldn’t wish it to be any other way.

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